Whew...Where Did August Go?

Before you go judging me, I just want to throw out there that I had family in town for the last 2 weeks, and if I were to have written a blog post during their visit I should probably be considered rude, at best, because it takes away a lot of time better spent chatting or sleeping.

I like my in-laws.

I love e-cards. LOL. I don't really pretend. I am pretty bad at having a poker face, so if I don't like you, or if I'm annoyed by you, then you will definitely know. Also, I will pretty much tell you.

First my sister-in-law came with her husband and kids, then my parent-in-laws and other sister-in-law came the following week, and then some really good friends of ours (my hunk calls her husband his cousin because they grew up really close to each other and spent some holidays together, etc.) came over.

For the record, I actually get along with my sisters and mother-in-law...not that I don't with my father-in-law...it's just he and my hunk are usually pow-wowing together somewhere so I don't really chat with him like I do the gals of the family.

 

I post this knowing they will not be offended.

For future reference, any visits from or to family will probably result in a quiet spell...followed by a couple posts. Consider this your weekly update (believe me, it really is).

To be honest, I was actually enjoying the time. I'd be doing "A" and then would look around and "B" had already been done for me! I must say, I was pretty spoiled for the entire two weeks they were here. And now I'm left to face the dishes and laundry and children and cleaning all on my own *SOB*

There is something to be said for multi-family living. I mean, you could take shifts. "I can't handle another second of children." Okay, no problem, let me take over the kiddos, while you take over something tedious and time consuming...here's a hamper full of clean laundry!

Oh, and an adorable baby to keep you company :)

Not that I have a bias.

That's it for now. Up next: How I'm going to start making subtle changes to my blog. Be prepared...it won't be a lot of changes...I'll still talk about my favorite things. But I'm going to introduce you to what is rapidly becoming my MOST favorite thing...give or take a few kids and a hunk.

Fabulously Flawed

Yesterday, I spent too much time getting angry and upset at my children...like yelling, and then having to apologize for yelling, etc.

"Oh my gosh, I can't stand that she yells at her kids."

Yeah, well bite me.

We are all flawed individuals and where I shine the most in this system is in my ability to yell/throw things/slam doors. I'm sorry, but we can't be as perfect as YOU. I know my flaws and believe me, it is a constant prayer.

And when things are extremely stressful, from like a million aspects at once (no, this is not a slight exaggeration), then that flaw is even more pronounced.

I've even been angry and upset at my hunk, who has been working so many hours he hasn't even really been home! But it's still his fault....(in my flawed perspective, chill out...geez).

(That is so me the last couple months...)



We all have our bad days, and the key is realizing the good moments even within those bad days. (And not in thinking that someone else is having a worst day....how does that make your day better?! o.O)

Some bad days line up in a matter of weeks and you get shot down in an emotional firing squad...which is what makes you a pissy....er....person.

I keep getting so worked up about all these little things. And then something happens to put things in a new perspective. And boy do I feel shame.

I'm not going to be fake and insensitive and say, "Which makes me love and appreciate my children and hunk even more." I don't need to declare that to anyone...and if you don't realize that I think that, then you obviously don't know me very well.


What I do wish is that I could pass on the blessings that God has given to me, to help out those in need. Somethings are just impossible. I'm on my fourth and, as far as my hunk is concerned, final child...so why can't I pass on fertility, or pregnancy, or child bearing? Although, I have considered doing that in another real way...but more on that later (if that choice is made). I wish every woman could experience the journey of motherhood.

But what I do want my friends to know is that I'm a fiercely loyal person and would drop everything to help you out if you needed it. And I mean that.

I would delay nap time for you. I would end nap time early for you. I would completely forgo nap time for you. Nap times are pretty important around here (for the sanity of the mommy and the well being of the children).

 

(not that this has been me lately, either...)

I would not, however, give up lunch/dinner for you, BUT I would bring it with me to make sure you were not missing out on that as well. No really...ask me to do something around lunch/dinner time and see what happens.

I won't eat your cookie...I have kids, I've learned how to just eat a portion and share with them. <3 this cartoon.

My point is, I would be there if I could and make a way when I couldn't. And maybe that will be all that someone needs. Sometimes it's best just not to be alone. Plus, I would be bringing my children...dinner and a show!

And as my children sit on the couch and watch TV, yet again, today (not a complete failure...they played together without too much incident for well over 2 hours today!) I take this time to stop and think. To process and write. To come to peace.

There has been a lot on my mind, but it has been mostly selfish. And now I have more serious, less selfish things to ponder...thank you, God, for throwing that at me when I was being absolutely ridiculous with my petty, pathetic problems. My heart is still heavy, and I can't fathom the mixture of sorrow and joy in this world, but I can take refuge knowing that there IS someone who DOES know.

<For I know the thoughts and plans that I have for you, says the Lord, thoughts and plans for welfare and peace and not for evil, to give you hope in your final outcome. Then will you call upon Me, and you will come and pray to Me, and I will hear and heed you. Then you will seek Me, inquire for, and require Me [as a vital necessity] and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:11-13 (Amplified Bible)>