Dear Santa

 
I know you've been watching me all day today and I just want to take this moment to ask: Can I do anything to make it back on the "Nice" list?

I've been a really big failure today...mixed in with a couple of "Eh, she'll pass" moments.

Things I did well today:

• Got the bedsheets stripped and replaced, washed said sheets, and am currently waiting on them to finish drying (*listens for dryer*....hmmm...I don't think they are dry enough yet...) Oliver told me, "Thank you for making my bed, Mommy!" (I <3 my kids.)

• Made some chocolate covered peanuts and haystacks.

Once again, I did not take pictures during the prep...sorry. I will make them again just so I can...but it is super easy...melt things, add things, scoop things out and let them harden, refrigerate...That's why I don't mind making them again!

But that's it (on what I did well today)! I was pretty much yelling/raging/trying not to cry the rest of the day. I got off on the wrong foot...the time I normally get up to go work out (which I couldn't do today since my hunk had to leave for actual work early) my little *grits teeth into a fake smile* "princess" came into the room and woke me up. She did that a couple more times between 5:45am and 8:00am...so much for sleeping in! Then, before breakfast, Oliver said his stomach hurt and proceeded to throw up part of breakfast (sorry, no one wants to hear that...) which meant I would be dealing with a sick kiddo today...

Thank you, Anthony...that's exactly what I was feeling: "Seriously?"

Instead of just looking at my kids and rolling with the punches I decided to fight back and wound up with a doozy of a bruise. I injured the part of day I had with my kids by moping and being ridiculous.

I am a firm believer in moderation...extremism is unattractive and sometimes fairly comical (because the extremists are completely ridiculous). Most people do NOT have it all together (even though they like to pretend that they do) definitely not everyday. Today was definitely an extreme day for me...and I feel as unattractive and ridiculous as possible. 

I am thankful that I have a Father who is willing to forgive me when I come to him in sorrow and repentance! I DO want to be a better mother, wife, child of God, etc...but sometimes (okay, most of the times) I end up failing miserably. I am not great at what I do, I am not even good at it...I'm definitely very average...and the way I wear my many hats of life is evident of that!

I'm glad I'm not the only one!
<Turn thee unto me, and have mercy upon me; for I am desolate and afflicted. The troubles of my heart are enlarged: O bring thou me out of my distresses. Look upon mine affliction and my pain; and forgive all my sins. Psalm 25:16-18>