Temper Tantrum

So the beginning of last week I was just out of sorts (I think I mentioned this). Beyond grouchy, much to my hunk's dismay and frustration, and just ticked off at nothing in general. Thursday night came around and I decided to change my attitude...and feel like it has been going pretty well this week.

And then last night happened...

I've discovered something...I'm an extremely selfish person. I try not to be, but I am. Like, a little child selfish. I even throw fits....good grief that was embarrassing to admit! I know that I have come miles from where I used to be in regards to my attitude and selfish spirit, but it is still there. Throwing tantrums (yelling and stomping around when frustrated...yeah, not a pretty sight to see an adult do that, is it?)

I NEED to do better. I WANT to do better. But this morning I really really wanted to work out and couldn't because my *grits teeth* hunk had to get up early for work. That's supposed to be MY time. I don't like getting up early, but once I start working out that just dissipates and I'm exuberant!

I tried...we have a treadmill in our garage that I tried running on. That lasted all of 2 minutes...maybe less. Treadmills and I have a very poor relationship...not to mention I didn't know how to turn on the light in the garage, which wouldn't be bad, but I couldn't see how many calories I was burning or how many miles I had run, etc. So I came back in, frustrated, wishing I had just stayed in bed, and just having a general feeling of pissed off-ness.

Ah, Calvin...thank you. I need to print this out, laminate it, and put it out for my hunk just so he has a warning. And not so he can just steer clear of me and ignore me...that just makes me even more pissed off. *sigh*

So then Oliver came in, and I was frustrated because he's been up since 7 (I know this, as I was up since 6...going to go work out...which failed miserably). But he came in and sat next to me, and rubbed my arm, and hugged me, and told me "Aw, I love you." And that makes some of the frustration disappear...but now he's nagging me to watch Netflix...*sigh*.

So I'll leave hoping that I will feel better after a shower and some breakfast...but I'm not counting on it...

Yeah, I'll probably be doing that a lot today.

Of course, he was just blinded by the light of the camera flash...

 <Let nothing be done through strife or vainglory; but in lowliness of mind let each esteem other better than themselves. Philippians 2:3>